Thursday, September 17, 2015

Happy Birthday {JackCruz}

Two weeks ago today on September 3, this precious little stinker bug turned three years old.


How is that even possible?!

One year ago on this same date was the most amazingly bittersweet day of my life.  We were given the  sweetest privilege of sharing an extra day with our son to help celebrate his birthday.  But as amazing as our time together was, it ended quickly as I hopped out of the car, in the middle of a busy intersection, in the pouring rain, ruining my favorite flats and kissing my beautiful birthday boy goodbye until I would see him again.  

Oh my heart.  That's hard to relive.  

You know that goodbye is gonna sting.  

But you don't realize how much until you actually have to do it.  

So the fact that we got to spend this birthday together-the entire day with no goodbyes-was almost more than my heart could handle.  

We took two special outfits to document this day in:  his smocked birthday shirt from his Auntie Becky that he also wore on his second birthday while we were in Korea, and his beautiful new hanbok that I was able to pick out for him.  My sweet friend was in Korea bringing her little boy home and gave me the opportunity via Iphone to shop in Seoul all through the comfort of my bed.  Technology, ya'll, is simply brilliant.  That was such a fun night!  In Korea, they don't really acknowledge traditional pink/blue as gender prominent, and I absolutely LOVED the green and pink combo on this one.  Pman also got a new one that is more purple and green and I think they are both stunning.

Of course, I may have a slight hanbok obsession as we now own six... But I think they are so beautiful and I love the uniqueness of each one and how special they are in honoring JackCruz's culture.  I also just love that Perry calls them his 'king outfits.' 

As I snapped away, I couldn't help but choke back tears.  Because, if you know me, I'm a bit emotional and wear those emotions right on my sleeve for everyone to see.  And even at almost a year home, I just still can't believe he's here.  Three and a half years in process and truly a lifetime of longing for him... and he's here.  

And he's so amazing.  And loud.  And joy filled.  And crazy stubborn.  And lovable.  And charming.  And opinionated.  And silly.  And strong willed.  And intelligent.  And absolutely adorable.  

And mine.  

I am the luckiest girl in the entire world.  

Happy Birthday JackCruz JiHwan.  You are loved from the East to the West, to Forever and Back, and EVERYWHERE in between.  

{thankful for}
a selfless birth mom who loved her son the very most
beautiful hanboks
gorgeous weather
getting to chase mulgogi
my littlest baby
those little red shoes
shopping the markets of Korea on a smartphone
my brave big boy rocking his new big brother role more and more each day
that love truly crosses oceans
Omma and Appa, and all the other amazing foster families
Holt International, Villa Hope, and our amazing Social Workers
my precious husband and his heart for adoption
that security didn't see us picking the flowers! 

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

{Summer} Break

JackCruz is snoozing beside me, Mr Perry is learning away at school, so I decided it was a good time as any to return from my hiatus.  I have always loved this form of documenting our lives, but over the summer it just didn't get touched.  Or thought too much about, even.  We were just too busy making the memories to document them!

To quickly recap our summer, we spent our time getting good news from JC's doctor, celebrating our blondie turning SIX!, watching P graduate from Kindergarten, catching tadpoles and crawfish, splashing on the beach and finding starfish and shark's teeth, painting, sleeping late, making fresh/home grown salsa, canning pickles, tubing at the lake, twirling batons, home-improving, McWane Science Centering, reintroducing home cooked meals, celebrating our Taco turning THREE!, and just soaking up being a little family of four.

And it was a gooooood one.  Crazily full and yet blissfully not.  It was good Sabbath.

Some of it, I may go in and recap, but I'm not putting much pressure on myself to do so.  So, we'll see....

{thankful for}
summer sabbath
homemade dinners around the table
homegrown salsa
lazy winding creeks
shady trails

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Take Me Out to {Perry's} Ballgame!

Perry's team was kinda the underdog team of the bunch this year.  And we consider that pretty stinkin' lucky because aren't the littlest littles the absolute cutest to watch sift dirt through their gloves pick flowers stand there and watch the ball roll by play?  

Like, ever?! 

So to up our anty, somebody decided these little giants needed some war paint for the last game.  

...Maybe we shoulda tried the scare tactic back in March...

It might not have made too much of a dent in the other team's confidence, but I have to say I think it gave our little guy's a little pep in their step.  Despite still feeling a little puny from his four day sickness over the weekend, Pman totally rocked his last game.  Two AWESOME stops at third base and a rockstar hit to the outfield, along with an RBI or two.  

But no matter the number of wins or losses, a little league baseball uniform means precious little league baseball pics.

And that, my friend, makes for an AWESOME season.

{thankful for}
new ball park friends
learning first from third
getting to hear little ones yell "TIME!"
snacks after the game
ball park sunsets
growing confidences
a daddy that loves to be involved

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

{Super} JackCruz

 Because when life gives you a child who wants to be naked as much as he does, you throw a cape and some 'goggles' on him and start snapping.

{thankful for}
little boy underoos
the superhero within
a cape and some 'goggles' hanging out in the dress up drawer
fresh sheets

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Happy {Eighth} Anniversary

Today marks eight years since two babies stood at an alter before God, friends, and family and said, "Yes" to forever.  

And that was the very best decision I have ever made.  

I am one that believes that you can find love with more than one person on this planet.  But, I don't believe everyone finds love with their best friend.  And that, I have been lucky enough to do.  

We are just alike enough to make things compatible, and just different enough to keep things interesting. 

Some of my favorite things about him:

He loves cheese dip as much as much as I do
He has a passion for the fatherless
He texts me from the outfield
He tells me I'm beautiful and he couldn't love anyone more regularly
He throws our boys up in the air and tickles them like crazy
He can't go to the Humane Society without coming home with a dog
& He makes the BEST omelets on the planet

This guy is awesome and I'm forever grateful that He's mine and I am his. 

*My biggest regret from our wedding day is not purchasing more photo prints.  We have a gorgeous photo book with hundreds of pictures in it, but very few to actually frame for around our house or to scan in for a blog post.  So, I just take blurry Iphone pics of the ones we do have. ;)* 

{thankful for}
one day more

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Slaying {Dragons}

"Fairy tales do not tell children the dragons exist.  Children already know that dragons exist.  Fairy tales tell children that dragons can be killed."  ~G.K. Chesterton

I love going back through my Bible and reading the notes I took during specific times or seasons I have been through and really reflecting on what God was trying to show me then and figuring out how that same principle or lesson could apply to my life today.  

Recently, I have been going back to a passage I studied at an adoption conference a little over a year ago.  In Exodus 33: 7-11 we are told about Moses entering into The Tent of the Meeting to speak with God.  While God was meeting with Moses, a pillar of cloud would come down upon the tent and settle at its entrance.  We see that when the meeting was finished, his young aide Joshua would watch Moses exit the tent and would remain there to soak up the holiness.  He would watch Moses to see how he responded and how his actions would reflect the knowledge he had learned.  

There are so many things to take away from these few verses, yet what has just been resounding in my heart is that Joshua watched Moses.  

I think it is so very important to be mindful that our children are watching us go into The Tent of the Meeting with Our Lord.  And not only are they watching the defining moments in our lives, but they are witnessing our everyday and ordinary.  They are watching to see how we will respond to His orders and teachings.  They are watching to see how we will react when things don't quite go our way.  They are watching to see if we view ourselves as worthy and use our talents gifted from Him.  They are watching to see if we treat others with kindness, mercy, and grace.  

They are watching.  They want to see how we will respond. 

And they will internalize what they see and become what we teach.

In mothering little boys, one area in particular that I feel so very important to model for them is that with God, all things are possible.   {Matthew 19:26}

When things are tricky, I want them to see their Momma persevere and put her faith in our Savior.  When things look grim, I want them to see their Momma rally with hope and prayer.  When things are clearly unfair, I want them to see their Momma seeking justice for the broken and finding peace in the fact that this world is not our home.  I want them to see their Momma overcoming fear, trials, and tribulations simply by knowing and having a relationship with The One who has already conquered all these things.

I want them to see their Momma slay some dragons.

And I want them to know that they can do it too.  

{thankful for}
living scripture
trials that bring Him glory
childhood imaginations
that the victory is already won

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

My {Dearest} Perry

My sweet boy-

Mommy is sooooooo proud of you!  Six months of being a BIG brother!  And, in my book, six months is a big deal.  

A really big deal.  

And dude...You've totally rocked it!!

I know it hasn't always been easy.  I know it hasn't always been fun.  I know it hasn't always seemed quite fair.  

But my sweet baby, you are learning and growing, and getting even better every single day.  

I've seen your patience lengthened, your love stretched, and your laughter multiplied.  

It has been my utter privilege and immense joy to watch you grow into this awesome BIG role God has in store for you.  

Jack Cruz is soooooo lucky to be your little.     

And I am so. very. proud.  

{thankful for}
hand-me-down skateboards
toothless grins
inner joy
new mercies every morning

Our Adoption Timeline

  • June 19, 2011- We are officially "Paper Pregnant!" We have submitted our Waiting Child Application to Holt!
  • July 5, 2011- Submitted our formal Home Study Application to Villa Hope
  • September 6, 2011- Submitted all of our paperwork for our Home Study
  • October 8, 2011- Completed our First Home Visit
  • October 17, 2011- Completed our Second Home Visit
  • November 14, 2011- Home Study Approved
  • December 1, 2011- Filed our I600a
  • February 1, 2012- I600a Approval Letter
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